I can't believe how fast the year has gone by. And already, another year of my life down. A really crappy one looking back. I am actually hoping that the beginning of a new year will bring me new things and hopefully, satisfaction in the things I do. I've made some big changes but there are many more left to be made. I want to feel excitement about them, not anxiety.
It is hard to measure slow progress. I suppose that simply being aware is the beginning of progress- the path toward it. And that's where i'm at, so, I'll take it.
Remembering to be thankful also helps. There are several things that I am thankful for and when I stop to remember them, it makes me feel better.
For example; my mom, my sister, trees, music, the ability to speak and to listen, remembering the way Otis used to sigh when he laid down to sleep, ruby red grapefruit, realizing I'm cherished by a friend, the moon, the ocean, turtles and tortoises, the x-files, to laugh.
I feel better now.
