I am not here to please anyone but myself. And although that is admittedly, a struggle and perhaps selfish sounding, it is the only thing that really matters. Ultimately, I'm the only thing I will always have. While I know that the people closest to me have only my best interests at heart and I am forever thankful for that, I am the only one to walk in my own shoes. I don't need to defend my reasoning to anyone. I'm not going to tolerate behavior from friends that goes against any way I would ever treat them. It's not that I suddenly don't care anymore, but I want better than that.
Honestly, I don't feel like I function the way most people do. But that's just who I am. Caring to a fault. But I know I deserve great things. We all do, really. But, you gotta give in order to get.
On a completely different note; I am somewhat under the weather. Feel totally wiped out. Sleeping has been difficult for me, even more so than usual. Still house sitting. But between the early rising dogs and the changing weather my body seems to be lacking the proper weapons to fight whatever this is. Plans for the day include: sit, sleep (hopefully) and mayhaps viewing materials to soothe my soul ie: the x-files etc.
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